When you think back through the years, do you ever say to yourself - "if I had it to do over again, I would..." Honestly, I would only do any of it over again, if I knew what I know now. Unfortunately it doesn't work that way and the years just keep passing by. With that, I've noticed many physical changes happening. It takes longer to recover from work outs. My eyes are starting to do weird things. I'm still getting acne in my 40s (though that chemical peel seems to be helping that). Weight is harder to drop and much easier to put on. All of those things said - my mind is quieter. I'm much more tolerant of people I love, and less so of those I don't. I'm more committed to my family and career.
One thing that has not changed is my stubborn ability to push through pain. When I'm committed to something, I'm committed. As you know, I'm struggling with some shoulder issues. I've been in PT since February and have continued to lift weights throughout. I won a gold at Nationals and posted a new PR competition total. I'm finally part of a team and have been acknowledged as such. Now I'm in. All in. Fully in. Except my shoulders are not. I say shoulderssssssssssss. Yes, both of them. That's what is troubling me. One, I can deal with.
Last week I visited my doctor. I fessed up about the Nationals competition and she asked me if I had any other comps. Well, yes - I do. May 28th in fact. Now, my left shoulder is feeling better. It really is. With that she said that she thought the PT could help get me through that comp, at which point I would then take a break. Then she started doing her stupid, orthopedic, doctor, shoulder twisting tests... and, she changed her mind. I'm not to compete and I'm also to stop doing anything overhead. Anything except what the PT has me doing.
So here I am. Knowing full well the kind of person I am and the fact that I'm committed to a team.
What would you do?
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